February 2012
62 posts
you're somewhere out there after all..
you’re all I’ve ever wanted..
“Love doesn’t make things nice. It ruins everything. It breaks your heart....”
– Nicholas Cage, Moonstruck.
Anonymous asked: Can you go on tinychat please??????????
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The craziest thing is meeting someone with a smile made rough by the pain they hold within them, yet gentle enough with the softness of their souls to make you question what real happiness is. To make you genuinely want to smile about everything.
“You have to be an artist and a madman, a creature of infinite melancholy, with a...”
– Lolita, Vladimir Nabokov
Anonymous asked: who do you completely trust?
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“Some people bring out the worst in you, others bring out the best, and then...”
– Karen Marie Moning
Anonymous asked: When do you plan on dropping your poetry tape, "Voice"?
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“I have no notion of loving people by halves, it is not my nature. My attachments...”
– Jane Austen, Northanger Abbey
I no longer wish to be loved childishly.
I want to be loved with the strength and charm of maturity. I don’t want to be smothered by the fear of jealousy and insecurities. I don’t want a relationship based solely upon shutting the world out and locking each other in. I want to be somewhere where I can breathe. Where, even in the midst of a million people with a million heartbeats surrounding me, I can still know the sound or even play...
“Hoping that I could literally steal a glance, download it onto my retinas and...”
– Joshua Bennett
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Favorite quotes.
“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.” – Albert Einstein
“The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own. You do not blame them on your mother, the ecology, or the president. You realize that you control your own destiny.” – Albert Ellis
“The trouble with not...
I've never truly realized how far away from home I...
How much I really miss it. I try and remember the way the blades of grass used to look on my front lawn, or what streets led me there, or even who my neighbors were. I can’t, though. I can’t remember anything good about it. I only remember and feel pain whenever I think about it. And I’ve been years without it, without knowing or feeling it, yet always wondering what it would be...
Anonymous asked: What's one thing you want in regards to a lover or relationship?
: you get angry at me for having feelings.
: I get angry at myself for having them too. Not just you.
: you want to run away from everything.
: I want to run away from me.
“I like people with depth, I like people with emotion, I like people with a...”
– Abbey Lee Kershaw
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kween305 asked: I absolutely love your music and your form of writing. The way you play with words amazes me. I remember on one of your spoken words you said "I want it to be like the first time you learned to walk, you know, the memory you don't actually remember but something you've learned that you can never forget" I love that line, like how do you come up with that? It's crazy, I...
Slave, no more.
Crazy. how we become slaves of the thing we wish to master. We want love, so we work like slaves, putting in our efforts, giving a part of ourselves we cant explain to someone in a way we wish they’d cherish forever only to face reality that we exist only as memories when time has passed and it’s time for goodbyes.
Why can’t love be perfect. As humans, we want to experience every shade of...
Saturday I was staring at you,
while you laid asleep next to me, silent and still…just thinking about all of the things I ever thought epitomized perfection. Beauty, brains, smiles, eyes, hands, heights, strength, weaknesses, etc…Thinking of everything I once thought to be perfect, everything I ever dreamed of. Everything I spent my life wishing would come to me, just once, if ever. Cause honestly, you were never the person I...
I want to feel my heart open eternally.
I never again want to be held captive by grudges and memories of something’s turned nothing. I want to take them all as lessons, decide that I gave my best, then move on to the rest of my life. I don’t want to waste anymore time reminiscing on things that could have been, I want to see what what can be, what’s in front of me. I never want to succumb to my fears, by giving them the power to stop me...
Every time she comes back,
you get all distant. But even when she’s there, she’s not…so what’s the difference? She’s just looking for another way to hurt you, ruin you, leave you. And when you need a shoulder to cry on, I give you my sleeve too.
You don’t appreciate that though, I guess I’ve got to get a clue. So, the next time you need me… I wont be there for you.
Just to show you how it feels.
“To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers...”
– Woody Allen
“I want you to tell me about every person you’ve ever been in love with. Tell me...”
– Andrea Gibson
alchaicarqaedic asked: I scroll through my dashboard and your posts always catch my attention. I read them, and it's like the voice inside put into text. I'm sure an occasional heart to heart with you would be relaxing. Distance spoils it from happening. I'll just continue to read your posts and not feel I'm alone with my feelings. Salutations.
I don't care about anything anymore.
I’ve been contemplating for a while, going back and forth between feelings. But, I just realized I don’t care about or believe in anything anymore. It’s all worthless to me. Love, like, appreciation, success, greatness; all of it means nothing.
It’s not real. I can’t take any of it with me when I leave here, I can’t even tell if it’s sincere most of the...
I'm entirely too contemplative.
I want good to come from everything, so much so, that as I realize it’ll never happen…my belief in humanity depreciates almost entirely.
Anonymous asked: bitch, why do you think so highly of yourself? you aint shit. you say it, but you just say it so people tell you that you are. you have greasy ass stringy hair, you're skinny and awkward, you're ugly. and you're a gay bitch get a life other than rapping about shit no one cares about, hoe
…you were just the only thing in life, I thought would never let me down..
“Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love...”
– Letters to a Young Poet
Anonymous asked: Are you ashamed of being black ?? On your Instagram twitter and On here you ONLY refer to yourself as Native American . You're clearly not only Native American so why do you broadcast one part of you everywhere and deny the others part ?
Tap on my window, and knock on my door.. I..wanna make you feel beautiful. I know I tend to get so insecure.. It doesn’t matter anymore.
I don’t mind spending every day out on your corner in the pouring rain.. and look for the girl with the broken smile.. then ask her if she wants to stay a while..
…and she will be loved.
“I like the idea of being alone. I like the idea of often being alone in all...”
– Robert Plant
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I saw my life branching out before me like the...
From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a spouse and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Angel Haze, the amazing rapper, and another fig was Constantine and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions,...
My first love,
Wasn’t perfect. In fact, it was the exact opposite. It was torturous, and within that laid more fear and insecurity than I’ve ever felt outside of it. I felt pressured..to be perfect or consequently replaced. I wanted so badly to be something reminisced, something everlasting. So, I worked overtime to leave a mark, so deeply imprinted it’d be fossilized before it vanished. I wanted to be the...
I thought growing up was something that happened automatically as you got older.
But, it turns out, it’s something you have to choose to do.
“People change. Feelings change. It doesn’t mean that the love once shared...”
– Summer
No work today,
So I’m finally taking the time to sort through my musical collection/buy more music. I totally wanna get into buying vinyl records…mostly smiths and beach boys type of things. I’m excited about it. >_< Only, I have no one to accompany me to the record store…maybe i’ll get lucky and meet someone new today.
also, I’ve no songs in my ITunes library, and...
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Weekend recap.
Spent it with my girlfriend. Split the top of my mouth with my toothbrush. Got slapped more times than I can remember. Made someone cum..multiple times. Laughed more than I can remember. Spontaneous kisses/sex. Met my girlfriend’s cousin for the first time. DC with my girlfriend.
Etc.
Of all the things I did, I liked meeting her cousin the most. People have so much more to them than...
6 Types of Love
Eros a passionate physical and emotional love based on aesthetic enjoyment; stereotype of romantic love
Ludus a love that is played as a game or sport; conquest; may have multiple partners at once
Storge an affectionate love that slowly develops from friendship, based on similarity
Pragma love that is driven by the head, not the heart
Mania obsessive love; experience great emotional...