I don’t want to do it too strongly, and end up empty. Or do it too roughly, and end up hurting, or hold it too tightly and end up smothering.. 

I want to be perfect, and I can’t. 

Sometimes, Im afraid to want too openly. I don’t want to seem as empty as I am. I want someone to come along and just understand my brokenness, and why I require such massive amounts of love. Why I hide so much, then I want to feel able enough to show myself to them. 

I’m afraid to be hurt again…but I want to feel so badly.

I want not to be so numb anymore.